Right path? Some signs
Me personally and professionally I have recently been on a transformation, a course correct, and path change. Sometimes when you find yourself stagnant something has to give. Either your will to grow will just give up or you push through hell to make the change happen.
Personal Changes
I decided enough was enough with my health. I decided to take control by telling my doctors everything I needed to change. I got my hormones in line, I got to a psychiatrist, and I got therapist. I got my meds in order to combat my Bipolar. I am working with a therapist to build healthy coping habits. I am building a circle of friends who know the whole truth of me. I started working out and eating right. I am down 50lbs and doing new things all the time.
I have hiked a couple times, I am swimming, I am taking fitness classes, and I am 60 miles in to 100 mile October challenge I gave myself.
I am pushing myself harder than I ever have mentally and physically.
I am back on a spiritual journey as well which has brought up so much hurt to address that I just shoved down deep and locked away.
I am getting so much pushback on this personal journey. Super down depressive days that no hope is found. Injuries that cause me to slow down and take maybe a step backwards. Attitude changes that cause me to push people away. Struggles with unhealthy coping strategies. Outside world putting in their two cents not knowing even 10% of problem.
There will always be this struggle. It is easy to stay complacent. But like a snake shedding their skin there is struggle before the beauty. Yes I know I could use butterflies but if you know me a snake is a much better fit lol!
Professional Path
For those that don’t know by now I have 3 things I do. I work for a multifamily software company as a revenue advisor in the AI department (sounds a lot fancier than it is lol), I own Wrong Side Creations a graphic art and design company serving the 540, and I am one of the founders of a soon to be charity SPARC a local art community and resource group created by artists for artists.
Now that the long intro is done, let’s talk about growth.
Working on solidifying my brand as Wrong Side Creations. I have employed some amazing friends who are working to help take all of my crazy in my head and focus to something great.
SPARC has put on 3 shows this year, went through a brand change in August, and working on the IRS approval. We have an amazing show coming up on 11/2 and for the first time ever we completely sold out of artists spots. We are excited for this end of the show year for us.
Things that have come up to stop me.
Well first since this is me a person, a human doing this, my mental health has got in the way of the growth.
Financially this has been a taxing year. Coming up with the fees to get things done has a been tricky.
Organizing which is kind of hand in hand with mental health. Surprising when I have no strength to do this sometimes I just don’t.
The more stones that are thrown in my path the more I know I have to do this.
Being on the right path
When you are on the right path the struggles are real but so are the rewards. Seeing my logo and branding work out there in the world. Getting to work on some amazing projects proving to myself I am worthy of the space I take up in these fields. Watching new artists showing and selling pieces. Getting to be around so many other creatives. Creating bonds that transcend day to day action. Making friends that are way cooler than me and push me to be better.
Personally and professionally I have so far to go but like carrying one stone at a time to build a castle sometimes you have look at the whole project to see how far you have come.
Thanks for reading my ramble. Feel free to leave comments, suggestions, or share!
