The brain of a neurospicy person like me is ever swirling with incoherent utterances. It likes to pick fights with myself more often than not. It’s like high school jock bully that never left town and has 8 children and working a mediocre job, bitter and angsty. Along with my health journey I am working on a mental health journey. There are so many ways I am forcing my brain to calm and take a breather.
Walking is more than exercise
When you walk you are not only exercising but you are also releasing dopamine. As someone with bipolar II dopamine in something major that is lacking. We tend to go on dopamine splurges and deplete this extremely important chemical reaction in our bodies. Walking helps to put a bit more gas in the tank.
Walking has become an amazing time where I can enjoy myself. This is something I don’t do enough. I spend my life constantly comparing myself which always leaves me wanting and inadequate. With walking I find that one I am forced into myself and actually spend time with me. Slowly this is becoming a way for me to get to know me. To know what I need, to find my value, and to center my thoughts.
I have also found that this time I am able to hash through intense feelings and thoughts. I can get honest with myself and help confront those harsh truths in the safety of myself and the sweat. You may or may not find me sweating from my eyeballs on any given walk. Forewarning if you find me out there lol!
Journaling
I have hated journaling forever. What a stupid thing to write down your feelings. I already feel them what’s the point. Well there are a lot of points to this. Sometimes your feelings are absurd and by writing down you can confront that intrusive thought and create a counter thought when they tend to pop up again.
Sometimes writing down situations can give you clarity on it. I have found through my lack of self confidences I tend to allow more negatively impactful actions to be done to me in hopes for an ounce of acceptance or sense of belonging. Through writing through these situations I have found I have been able to put up non negotiables in my life that have been helping clear my brain up of situations I used to give too much energy to.
I have tried many guided journals so far my newest one has been amazing the Mind Journal System! Highly recommend. Not the cheapest on the market but hella good.
Taking myself on dates
This will be a new thing for me. With working through some stuff in therapy this is being added in. I need to love myself enough to be able to sit alone at dinner or go to a movie or take myself shopping. Purposeful time spent with myself in positive situations. Oppose to the opposite which I do too often sit at home alone with my thoughts.
I will definitely let you know how this goes!
Life is like airplane rules, put your mask on first before helping someone else
Remember you can’t serve from an empty cup. Find ways that work for you. This could be meditation, yoga, running, boxing, knitting, whatever.
Whether you are in a rut in your personal life, professional life, spiritual life, or extra terrestrial life centering your self is key. Find a way to quiet the inner monologue, find truths (good, bad, or ugly). As soon as you sure up self you will find quickly that the rest of life starts to file in order.
I so like your post Joshua 💗 thank you for your honesty and openess. I think every one has moments of brain fog and uncontrollable thoughts, at least that's how I felt when I first arrived back here. The whole removal funk caught up with me and I was exhausted, truly exhausted for most of September/October... I am feeling a little better now, and walking regularly has been crucial. We were made for movement! I walk for an hour every morning Monday through Friday, and I am so grateful I've found a few walking companions for my Saturday mornings. Stay well and in touch, my dear friend Joshua 🙏🏻